after bath..9.03pm
friday...the same boring dayy
same as others days...everyday for me is the same..
after work then go makan then go back home...stay at home until 10.30 or 11.00 then go sleep...wake up 5.40am wash face..make up myself..then go work again..
everyday..same time wake up..same road driving..same colleagues..
i cant go out..parent dn let..everyday juz a prison for me..
everyday thinking how to cheat my parent to let me go out..but owes failed
wat to do??
last sat..so happy..i curi curi went out during my parent not around..
then after go out..dn feel like go back home..12 sth back...get scolded until...haizz
the next day is sunday..my off day..but then cant get out also..lock at my house..
i dn like stay at home nowaday..home for me juz a presure..its not warm anymore since my brother went off to another world..wat can i do? i donoe!!
this feel for me ..wan to go study faster..dn wan stay at my home..
but owes thinking about this..others thing come to mind again..
tat is i juz can leave my family like this..leave my parent and my little brother??three plp at a big house??!!
they will feel lonely..
today..a same day for me also..
but something happen to me...after back from makan after work..watch tv..
suddenly argue with dad loudly..i juz went in the room..
i dn care anything..of course my dad also dn care..coz he wont sayang back or wat de..since last time is like this..
crying in the room...
tat time i juz think after bath i juz wan to go out..go to yamcha..dn care them..
while i wan to take thing to bath..
i heard my mother crying loudly outside..after ten min..still crying..i din go out to see her..
i juz stay at my room..i lock the door..
then i juz keep my mind thinking other stuff.
after tat i heard my dad crying loudly also..i heard him use the hand to knock the wall and the floor loudly..i can heard the sound quite clear..but i really donoe how to do..
i should be go out to with them..but i dint..coz i donoe wat can i do..and wat i will do..
pressure pressure pressure stress stress stress..
then i start crying again..i cant get my breathe..nearly fainted..my grandma keep on knock the door..i juz dn open..i even scold her...i say i dn wan see anyone..get away..dn care me..first time saying this kind of thing to my family..
i wan get crazy..i am helpless..i am not the one i am..
i owes think tat i am the happiness gal in the world..i appreciate everything around me..everything!!
but devil come over my side..
i am really helpless..when i see my parent like tat..especially my dad..
i wan to get loss

MoonCake festival~~~BBQ night

last Sunday 14/9 is the MoonCake Festival...so we organise a BBQ party to celebrate...but before that, we actually decide to dinner outside in restaurant, but its a bit fully book...some more weather forecast says it'll rain wor...tats makes us headache...but still "high risk high return" ma..so the BBQ is still on...

me Hong Yeh, Rex, Andrew and Gabriel went to Springvale shop for food...we went for seafood in the 1st place, bought mussel, baby squid and prawn..because by the time we reach Springvale, its almost 4pm, the butchers are starting to close...so we din get lamb in the market but bought pork chop...the most popular vege in BBQ is wad?? U GUESS la...is potato...we also get sweet potato and corn for out dinner and every1 loves it.

Next we went to Clayton for other food..chicken wing and lamb chop and sauces for marinating meat from Hong Kong shop...the process of preparing and marinating is fast...takes around 30 mins i think...but the fire thingy took us very long....tell u later...C picture 1st....


on the table got bbq flavor chicken wing, mussel, prawn, garlic pork chop, lamb...i found that seafood is nice to bbq coz can taste the original taste...the DEAr must like bbq much lo...hehe...

this 4 guys were tryin to light up the charcoal...took a while...there's new fren to introduce to u dear...tell later in group photo...

me peter and andrew

all of us are hungry wolf liao...coz 9 smth we baru start eat...and duno who is drinkin 王老吉...LOL

YES!!!!!group Photo for boyz...so most of them u noe rite dear???i repeat their name o...start from front...from left to right...Hong Yeh, Rex, Peter, me and IKO then at the back, left to right...Gabriel, Steve, Andrew and Lois (IKO we call him 表哥 and Lois is 表弟, they r cousin).

5 handsome guy....LOL....cannot say this meh....i dun malu de :P

This when we finish the 1st and 2nd round..c im bbqing mashmellow...1st time eat this...very nice de...outside a little burnt but inside neng neng....HO JIAk!!! gal on right side is Gabriel de housemate...

after we light up the lattern, we went walking at outside...but ho...forget to take pictures...then Rex drive his car out...u noe...抢镜头ma...lol

then Hong Yeh also jump out to take picture too

then Bonnet is opened...so we sit inside n being drove for a distance..

u c...car wif lattern looks cool ya??wan me put on ur car??LOL...

they all sit inside the car coz im too TUA JIAK, so i only knee ouside lo...so charm de...

After walking from outside, the lattern is then hang on the tree...looks great ho...n the lattern they bring were cute too...very different from i have seen lo...

when we took this picture, steve and Lois went home edi...coz they need to punch card to their gf...actually we r trying to tak ghost effect de...but 1st picture wasnt tat good...ext picture has the effect...

Successful Ghost effect...took by pro camera

All of them except peter and gabriel went home...overall it was a fun night lo...of coz got u different too....is fun fun fun fun....hehe

麒麟飞到北极会变成什么？ 冰淇淋（冰麒麟）

铅笔姓什么？ 萧，因为：削（萧）铅笔

猴子最讨厌什么线？ 平行线，因为没有相交（香蕉）

i post some lame joke..hope dear dear read this then will be happier...muaks...i love u

brother and me decide to make a tattoo of my second brother name..
成
after done..feel like brother was beside me..
i wan him
with my side forever..so tattoo it and follow me together..

my tattooist
my brother de..he scare..
the little brother with 2 inch
one inch
and me one inch

everyone ask me painful anot....not really pain

coz i lost my brother more 100 times painful than this..

i start work edi..start three days...because of the puasa...the traffic jam make me so mad!!
i now was in human resources department..doing paper work...but when i was working...my brother owes come to my mind..i really do miss him so much..
after work..i dn wan to go back home directly..
i feel so stress when back home..mom and dad are sad..all the happiness had gone..last time i love goin back home coz let me feel relax..but now..
i dn wan go back home but parent owes ask me to home early coz they worries...worries i will die..worry i got thing happen toward me...
i donoe how to face them..happy mood when back home also become down..the atmosphere was down..
goin inside the house..see our family portait picture..see my brother..goin upstair..my brother room is empty..sad..sad sad:(

my elder brother owes can cheer them up..but then after one month..he will goin back usa..then..i scare my parent will become worst..

thanks for all ur post on the love letter...really make me feel better..thanks friends!!

I WILL PUT HIM IN MY HEART FOREVER

25 august..god done a damn bad thing to me and my family..
that day was monday, no work coz goin to body checking..after that goin to shop a while..i second brother call me and ask me to help him to take stock..after taking stock..i call him..he say he sick and is resting..then i went back my dad's coffee shop..i put down the stock then went to eat sth..after an hour..i answer my auntie call!!
say my second brother went in the hospital..i tot was nothing..coz my auntie said he fainted..theni tot was juz check up or wat...but when i rush to hospital..my dad told me my brother was death..i cant believe..i go ask doctor...I CRIED!!
wat can i do?wat can i do?wat can i do to save him??
someone please tell me..i push him i pull him i call him...he din answer me..after few mins..he become so cold..i push again i push again..

my dad and mom cried loud at the hospital..my dad scream and scream..my mom shout out..kang chan please come back..wat can i do???????????????????????????????????
at that time i kiss him i touch him..he have no any reaction to me...WAT CAN I DO????????
GOD PLEASE TELL ME..WHY U TAKE AWAY JUZ SO EASY....

he get sent to general hospital..after a day..general hospital is coz of heart attack....but impossible!!
he got the body check few month ago..he is healthy..he juz leave us like tat..

he gonna marry on this year end..my sis in law told me..my brother ask her to kahwin faster then have baby faster..when i heard this...i cried loud again..he work so hard with coffee shop, handphone shop and fishing shop for a good life for the wife and family..but he juz leave like this..

my dad owes ask..how??how??i lost a child..i have work so hard and give him a shop..but he juz leave like this..my dad maybe will stop the coffee shop business..
my mom juz like crazy..crying non stop..crying days and nitez..

when he sent back to home..i touch him..he is so cold..i really wish he can come back..i wan him..he really sayang me..

哥,
你走了..我们真的都放不下你..
当我叫你..你不醒的时候,我的心真的碎了..碎裂的心要多久才能复合?
你真的走了..我们又不能说不!
我希望你好走..往西方走..
家里,我们会照顾..你放心..不要放不下..
我爱你..你永远在我们心里..
妹

ChEeR uP DEAR~~~

Dear dear....hope u can cheer up la~~~

my heart pain when u r sad~~

if only i can do smth to make happy~

so i pasted following picture to cheer u up

Give u flower not during Valentine but whenever u sad

I'll do "cou lian" to make u happy

Dear smile la...u looks great when u smile....he also....

the days in hospital and when i sick

on july 26 that is sat...after a high sch dinner..then go back home directly sick...
27 sunday..jessie brought me to a hospital..

28monday..my fever on and off so many times..and i really cant tahan edi..nitez time call my brother brought me to the same hospital again..
(actually is my kidney pain..then i tot is gastric..so i ate ten biji of ubat to cure..but then at last..i juz noe i ate wrong ubat..)

then the doctor say is kidney pain..then call me the next day which is 29 tues..the doctor ask me to go 8.30..but the ultra sound booking is full..so 2.30 go again...

after the ultra sound..the doctor ask me to go in the hospital directly and say very serious...
then my parent juz rush there then bring my thing over there for me..

i stay at hospital from last tues until thursday juz came out from the hospital

the doctor said very seldom see this kind of sickness

is my kidney surrounding by ulcer..its something like pimple..infection of virus and bacteria..

then coz dn wan operation so use medicine to cure it..

need time..at least three week to clear everything..

coz the doctor dn have confident..so my parent wan to bring me to singapore..

when wanna go singapore that time..my sickness got turn good...so i juz refuse to go then juz stay at the hospital..one week passed...the pimple turn smaller...so feel better but still pain if not with pain killer...

after stay hospital..i really appreaciate my health..

so tell u guys..appreaciate ur health..dn like me..

at first two days was stay in ICU..then after that juz change to normal room..

this is wat to prepare for the CT SCAN..

scan my whole body x-ray

after taking pain killer..feeling better

this is ICU room

then this is normal room
see i got my own pillow..lol..juz like my room
i am the longest stay patient
i see plp come in and out..i still haven discharge..
sien..
even old ah ma after operation
two days can discharge..i still cant..sobsob

this accompany me sleep

u noe why??

coz chinese 7 month

scare.then use this as my lucky thing put at my bedside

when i sleep

everyone laugh me about this..

after discharge..this is what i need to eat for ten days..

then need to go back again for medical check up

this is all my xray
my clean lung..no drinking no smoking
my kidney..




thanks for everyone which cares me alotz when i sick..touching

and thanks for the nurse also..

and the thing i feel sien..is i fat two kg when is in hospital..

i need to cure by five type of antibiotic a day..everyday juz injection and eat medicine

and i din bath for more than one week..haha

coz the doctor say whatever i also can eat..and muz eat to cure..

so after eat sleep after sleep eat..

haha..i still eat mc donald burger when i was in hospital..but no fries..haha

and i still got one week sick leave at home..haha..no need work for two week plus..

tegan

thursday night 17 July ~~

on Thursday night we had a small gathering...me, Rex, Peter and Philip...we dinner at my place wif own prepared food...tat day at around 5 smth, we went groceries shopping together at a very cheap shop...cheaper than COLES...we buy lots of vegetable like broccoli, capsicum, bean, onion...its really FUN when we preparing to cook...like CUT the food..we scream here scream there says shud wash vegetable b4 cut and it shud cut in such way..TOO BAD i din record tat...

After preparing, the chefs gonna start to cook...peter cook mixed vege (broccoli, capsicum, bean, celery, carrot)...TELL u arr...its very nice...the look also...later u shall c...then rex cook the bbq meat ball...we take the meat ball from the sausage...coz its nicer not to eat the outside thingy...he add red wine with onion n mushroom when he stir fry them...VERY NICE TOO...for me...i cook onion egg...hehe sounds easy HO...tell u arr...its not lo...hehe....bluekkk

CHEF Peter n Rex stir frying

another 1 of them

bbq meat ball

mixed vege

onion egg

u c these 2 guys like competing eating