I WILL PUT HIM IN MY HEART FOREVER

25 august..god done a damn bad thing to me and my family..
that day was monday, no work coz goin to body checking..after that goin to shop a while..i second brother call me and ask me to help him to take stock..after taking stock..i call him..he say he sick and is resting..then i went back my dad's coffee shop..i put down the stock then went to eat sth..after an hour..i answer my auntie call!!
say my second brother went in the hospital..i tot was nothing..coz my auntie said he fainted..theni tot was juz check up or wat...but when i rush to hospital..my dad told me my brother was death..i cant believe..i go ask doctor...I CRIED!!
wat can i do?wat can i do?wat can i do to save him??
someone please tell me..i push him i pull him i call him...he din answer me..after few mins..he become so cold..i push again i push again..

my dad and mom cried loud at the hospital..my dad scream and scream..my mom shout out..kang chan please come back..wat can i do???????????????????????????????????
at that time i kiss him i touch him..he have no any reaction to me...WAT CAN I DO????????
GOD PLEASE TELL ME..WHY U TAKE AWAY JUZ SO EASY....

he get sent to general hospital..after a day..general hospital is coz of heart attack....but impossible!!
he got the body check few month ago..he is healthy..he juz leave us like tat..

he gonna marry on this year end..my sis in law told me..my brother ask her to kahwin faster then have baby faster..when i heard this...i cried loud again..he work so hard with coffee shop, handphone shop and fishing shop for a good life for the wife and family..but he juz leave like this..

my dad owes ask..how??how??i lost a child..i have work so hard and give him a shop..but he juz leave like this..my dad maybe will stop the coffee shop business..
my mom juz like crazy..crying non stop..crying days and nitez..

when he sent back to home..i touch him..he is so cold..i really wish he can come back..i wan him..he really sayang me..

哥,
你走了..我们真的都放不下你..
当我叫你..你不醒的时候,我的心真的碎了..碎裂的心要多久才能复合?
你真的走了..我们又不能说不!
我希望你好走..往西方走..
家里,我们会照顾..你放心..不要放不下..
我爱你..你永远在我们心里..
妹

ChEeR uP DEAR~~~

Dear dear....hope u can cheer up la~~~

my heart pain when u r sad~~

if only i can do smth to make happy~

so i pasted following picture to cheer u up

Give u flower not during Valentine but whenever u sad

I'll do "cou lian" to make u happy

Dear smile la...u looks great when u smile....he also....

the days in hospital and when i sick

on july 26 that is sat...after a high sch dinner..then go back home directly sick...
27 sunday..jessie brought me to a hospital..

28monday..my fever on and off so many times..and i really cant tahan edi..nitez time call my brother brought me to the same hospital again..
(actually is my kidney pain..then i tot is gastric..so i ate ten biji of ubat to cure..but then at last..i juz noe i ate wrong ubat..)

then the doctor say is kidney pain..then call me the next day which is 29 tues..the doctor ask me to go 8.30..but the ultra sound booking is full..so 2.30 go again...

after the ultra sound..the doctor ask me to go in the hospital directly and say very serious...
then my parent juz rush there then bring my thing over there for me..

i stay at hospital from last tues until thursday juz came out from the hospital

the doctor said very seldom see this kind of sickness

is my kidney surrounding by ulcer..its something like pimple..infection of virus and bacteria..

then coz dn wan operation so use medicine to cure it..

need time..at least three week to clear everything..

coz the doctor dn have confident..so my parent wan to bring me to singapore..

when wanna go singapore that time..my sickness got turn good...so i juz refuse to go then juz stay at the hospital..one week passed...the pimple turn smaller...so feel better but still pain if not with pain killer...

after stay hospital..i really appreaciate my health..

so tell u guys..appreaciate ur health..dn like me..

at first two days was stay in ICU..then after that juz change to normal room..

this is wat to prepare for the CT SCAN..

scan my whole body x-ray

after taking pain killer..feeling better

this is ICU room

then this is normal room
see i got my own pillow..lol..juz like my room
i am the longest stay patient
i see plp come in and out..i still haven discharge..
sien..
even old ah ma after operation
two days can discharge..i still cant..sobsob

this accompany me sleep

u noe why??

coz chinese 7 month

scare.then use this as my lucky thing put at my bedside

when i sleep

everyone laugh me about this..

after discharge..this is what i need to eat for ten days..

then need to go back again for medical check up

this is all my xray
my clean lung..no drinking no smoking
my kidney..




thanks for everyone which cares me alotz when i sick..touching

and thanks for the nurse also..

and the thing i feel sien..is i fat two kg when is in hospital..

i need to cure by five type of antibiotic a day..everyday juz injection and eat medicine

and i din bath for more than one week..haha

coz the doctor say whatever i also can eat..and muz eat to cure..

so after eat sleep after sleep eat..

haha..i still eat mc donald burger when i was in hospital..but no fries..haha

and i still got one week sick leave at home..haha..no need work for two week plus..

tegan