after bath..9.03pm
friday...the same boring dayy
same as others days...everyday for me is the same..
after work then go makan then go back home...stay at home until 10.30 or 11.00 then go sleep...wake up 5.40am wash face..make up myself..then go work again..
everyday..same time wake up..same road driving..same colleagues..
i cant go out..parent dn let..everyday juz a prison for me..
everyday thinking how to cheat my parent to let me go out..but owes failed
wat to do??
last sat..so happy..i curi curi went out during my parent not around..
then after go out..dn feel like go back home..12 sth back...get scolded until...haizz
the next day is sunday..my off day..but then cant get out also..lock at my house..
i dn like stay at home nowaday..home for me juz a presure..its not warm anymore since my brother went off to another world..wat can i do? i donoe!!
this feel for me ..wan to go study faster..dn wan stay at my home..
but owes thinking about this..others thing come to mind again..
tat is i juz can leave my family like this..leave my parent and my little brother??three plp at a big house??!!
they will feel lonely..
today..a same day for me also..
but something happen to me...after back from makan after work..watch tv..
suddenly argue with dad loudly..i juz went in the room..
i dn care anything..of course my dad also dn care..coz he wont sayang back or wat de..since last time is like this..
crying in the room...
tat time i juz think after bath i juz wan to go out..go to yamcha..dn care them..
while i wan to take thing to bath..
i heard my mother crying loudly outside..after ten min..still crying..i din go out to see her..
i juz stay at my room..i lock the door..
then i juz keep my mind thinking other stuff.
after tat i heard my dad crying loudly also..i heard him use the hand to knock the wall and the floor loudly..i can heard the sound quite clear..but i really donoe how to do..
i should be go out to with them..but i dint..coz i donoe wat can i do..and wat i will do..
pressure pressure pressure stress stress stress..
then i start crying again..i cant get my breathe..nearly fainted..my grandma keep on knock the door..i juz dn open..i even scold her...i say i dn wan see anyone..get away..dn care me..first time saying this kind of thing to my family..
i wan get crazy..i am helpless..i am not the one i am..
i owes think tat i am the happiness gal in the world..i appreciate everything around me..everything!!
but devil come over my side..
i am really helpless..when i see my parent like tat..especially my dad..
i wan to get loss

MoonCake festival~~~BBQ night

last Sunday 14/9 is the MoonCake Festival...so we organise a BBQ party to celebrate...but before that, we actually decide to dinner outside in restaurant, but its a bit fully book...some more weather forecast says it'll rain wor...tats makes us headache...but still "high risk high return" ma..so the BBQ is still on...

me Hong Yeh, Rex, Andrew and Gabriel went to Springvale shop for food...we went for seafood in the 1st place, bought mussel, baby squid and prawn..because by the time we reach Springvale, its almost 4pm, the butchers are starting to close...so we din get lamb in the market but bought pork chop...the most popular vege in BBQ is wad?? U GUESS la...is potato...we also get sweet potato and corn for out dinner and every1 loves it.

Next we went to Clayton for other food..chicken wing and lamb chop and sauces for marinating meat from Hong Kong shop...the process of preparing and marinating is fast...takes around 30 mins i think...but the fire thingy took us very long....tell u later...C picture 1st....


on the table got bbq flavor chicken wing, mussel, prawn, garlic pork chop, lamb...i found that seafood is nice to bbq coz can taste the original taste...the DEAr must like bbq much lo...hehe...

this 4 guys were tryin to light up the charcoal...took a while...there's new fren to introduce to u dear...tell later in group photo...

me peter and andrew

all of us are hungry wolf liao...coz 9 smth we baru start eat...and duno who is drinkin 王老吉...LOL

YES!!!!!group Photo for boyz...so most of them u noe rite dear???i repeat their name o...start from front...from left to right...Hong Yeh, Rex, Peter, me and IKO then at the back, left to right...Gabriel, Steve, Andrew and Lois (IKO we call him 表哥 and Lois is 表弟, they r cousin).

5 handsome guy....LOL....cannot say this meh....i dun malu de :P

This when we finish the 1st and 2nd round..c im bbqing mashmellow...1st time eat this...very nice de...outside a little burnt but inside neng neng....HO JIAk!!! gal on right side is Gabriel de housemate...

after we light up the lattern, we went walking at outside...but ho...forget to take pictures...then Rex drive his car out...u noe...抢镜头ma...lol

then Hong Yeh also jump out to take picture too

then Bonnet is opened...so we sit inside n being drove for a distance..

u c...car wif lattern looks cool ya??wan me put on ur car??LOL...

they all sit inside the car coz im too TUA JIAK, so i only knee ouside lo...so charm de...

After walking from outside, the lattern is then hang on the tree...looks great ho...n the lattern they bring were cute too...very different from i have seen lo...

when we took this picture, steve and Lois went home edi...coz they need to punch card to their gf...actually we r trying to tak ghost effect de...but 1st picture wasnt tat good...ext picture has the effect...

Successful Ghost effect...took by pro camera

All of them except peter and gabriel went home...overall it was a fun night lo...of coz got u different too....is fun fun fun fun....hehe

麒麟飞到北极会变成什么？ 冰淇淋（冰麒麟）

铅笔姓什么？ 萧，因为：削（萧）铅笔

猴子最讨厌什么线？ 平行线，因为没有相交（香蕉）

i post some lame joke..hope dear dear read this then will be happier...muaks...i love u

brother and me decide to make a tattoo of my second brother name..
成
after done..feel like brother was beside me..
i wan him
with my side forever..so tattoo it and follow me together..

my tattooist
my brother de..he scare..
the little brother with 2 inch
one inch
and me one inch

everyone ask me painful anot....not really pain

coz i lost my brother more 100 times painful than this..

i start work edi..start three days...because of the puasa...the traffic jam make me so mad!!
i now was in human resources department..doing paper work...but when i was working...my brother owes come to my mind..i really do miss him so much..
after work..i dn wan to go back home directly..
i feel so stress when back home..mom and dad are sad..all the happiness had gone..last time i love goin back home coz let me feel relax..but now..
i dn wan go back home but parent owes ask me to home early coz they worries...worries i will die..worry i got thing happen toward me...
i donoe how to face them..happy mood when back home also become down..the atmosphere was down..
goin inside the house..see our family portait picture..see my brother..goin upstair..my brother room is empty..sad..sad sad:(

my elder brother owes can cheer them up..but then after one month..he will goin back usa..then..i scare my parent will become worst..

thanks for all ur post on the love letter...really make me feel better..thanks friends!!